Monday, 12 May 2014

Beauty in the brokenness

Brokenness is a place of beauty, but it's not where we are meant to stay.  It's a place of learning, of humility and reminding yourself to breath just to survive.  It's a place where it feels like your heart is bleeding out of your chest and you cannot do a thing to stop it.  It's a place of abundant grace and being carried by the Lord.  It is exhausting and exhilarating all at the same time.  Exhausting because it's all you can do survive and hold onto hope but exhilarating because you actually do it.  The smallest things bring the greatest sense of triumph.  Friends who step up when others turn away.  New experiences and opportunity and confirmation that you are where you're meant to be even when you just want to raise your hands at God and say REALLY???  WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

He knows...

He understands.......

He is my life, my breath, my entire being, my heart and soul.  He reaches down into the darkest places of shame and guilt with the hands of a master surgeon and says 'that has to go, I created you for so much more than this...'

Will you let me heal you?  Will you trust me to love you through this?  Yes, a small and frail 'yes' escape my soul and steps into a new unknown.  For every journey is new.  It brings a new peace, a new joy and a new beginning.  A journey into freedom to cherish and nurture until it has become all it is called to be.  A journey into knowing me through Him.

For how long?  I have no idea but I am trusting him to sustain me for the journey.  It has been horrendous at times and I felt like my heart and soul were irreparably broken.

But then he whispers...

'Nothing is beyond my hand, nothing is beyond my grace, nothing is beyond my mercy and love for you.  Take heart, I am working out a miracle in your life that will shine for others.  You will help others to know me through your brokenness.  Trust me, I love you!'

And so I trust, knowing I am loved and in His hands.

2 Corinthians 4:5-12

Remember, our Message is not about ourselves; we’re proclaiming Jesus Christ, the Master. All we are is messengers, errand runners from Jesus for you. It started when God said, “Light up the darkness!” and our lives filled up with light as we saw and understood God in the face of Christ, all bright and beautiful.

If you only look at us, you might well miss the brightness. We carry this precious Message around in the unadorned clay pots of our ordinary lives.


Love J

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